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Meh try test jap menulis sementara mak ngan imah ngan mak ngah g toilet. Mule2 bile ayah ajak nk g mekah ni, rasa cam b ad sket berat.pasal rasa cm diri ni da byk sgt dosa.hati pon da berkeladak.huhuhu...ate nye dah malinn besa makin menimbun2 dosa...

Tapi...da rezeki..org banje plak tuh,jgn ditilak.mana tau,lepas ke umrah ni aku beeubah ke y lbh baik.

Da decide,ajak plak si timot. Oleh kerana tabung mensupport perjalann sudah diisi aku,jadinye,imah kene la sapot diro sensiri...muahahahaha.tape imah,meh kak lang y naik hati ni sapot sket.

Datangg menapak ke kota mekah ni, aku baru trasa patutle ad org tuh asik je la dtg mengerjakan umrah. Die semacam satu addiction y kaalo boleh mesti nal lagi.

So, kalo ad duit, mri mengumpul dan dtg mengerjalan umrah. Tayah tunggu bile da tua pasal mnt kudrat da kurang.nnt rugi. Tade duit? Ayah pernah cakap, jangan asil kata dan pilir tade duit.nnt sampai bile pon x de suit. Sile ubah ke pemiliran yg positif .slalu kata saya imsyaAllah ade suit nal pergi.Bile da berniat mcm tu, InsyaAllah, Allah akan tolong tunaikan (tp kene la mengumpul gak.nulan x kan jatuh ke riba).

Sape yg byk duit tuh, sambil2 around the world, jom la buat umrah dam haji slalu....tak luak doh..bersihkan hati lagi ade la...


Sekian sahaja ceramah poyo saye dari mekah al mukarramah. Den tgh dlm van nal menuju ke tanaim utk bermiqat...

Oh..sudah sampai.

6.04 am/sabtu

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little daisy said…
alhamdulillah... sampai gak kat sana ek! ^_^ semoga semuanya berjalan dgn baik n selamat kembali... :)
April 15, 2012 at 10:11 AM
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