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tiupan monsun timur laut~

Ombak Rindu.. *sigh*..hari sabtu hari tu terteman kak long aku gi Alamanda tengok wayang. Walaupon sebenarnye hati macam tak seronok je nak berhuha, tapi TER temankan lah pulak.

Kak Long plak macam tade cite lain nak tengok. Ombak Rindu yang dipilihnye. Tapi sebab aku TERngada2 nak ikut, layankan je la.

Time sekola menengah dulu, aku ade khatamkan novel ombak rindu tu. Aku tatau la korang, tapi setiap kali aku habis baca novel, aku mesti ade certain emosi terhadap novel yang aku baru habis baca tu.

Satu, ade yang aku tersenyum lebar sambil mengeluh kegembiraan kepala terangguk2 terawang2 terbang sampai ke langit ketujuh belas

ade yang bile habis je ayat terakhir, hati aku sebak habis termenung kepala mata berat hati menangis merintih hiba (ni selalunye kalau hero yg aku suke mati. bodoh punye penulis!)

ade yang aku campak je novel ke lantai sambil menjerit BODOH punye penulis! (tang ni pon sebab hero yg aku suke mati/atau sumthing yang membuatkan hero ngan heroin tak dapat bersama)gile stress!!

Ade yang aku jeling je novel tu dengan muke yang tak puas hati.

itu beberapa contoh emosi/perasaan aku lah

Perasaan aku lepas baca ombak rindu:- menyampah! tak suke! tak puas hati!
walaupon ending die happy sokmo la konon, aku tetap menyampah. Sebab aku tak suke/benci/menyampah dengan hero die.

sebab tu bile movie die keluar, sikit pon aku tak heran. Hati macam tak puas hati lagi ade la. Dan bile dah tertengok movie Ombak Rindu ni, perasaan aku tetap tak berganjak.Lagi mengukuhkan foundation emosi aku terhadap O.R. tu lagi ade la.Time babak kunun romantik, aku rasa macam tekak mual nak muntah . Time babak sedih, aku rasa nak cucuk mata sendiri . Agak nye seratus kali kot aku dok la tengok jam kat tangan ni bile la nak habis movie nih. Aghh...stress aku!!

the only part yang aku suke bagi perhatian sepenuhnye dalam movie tu bile time Mila bagi penerangan maksud Pasrah dan Redha kat Izzah.

Redha itu ikhlas menerima ketentuan Illahi. Pasrah itu menyerah.


Comments

a.T.i.e.Q.a said…
di saat orang sibuk tengok OR ni, family aku tengok MI4.. bole?

aku ada perasaan 50-50 nak tengok dengan tidak.. so, aku tunggu je la kot keluar astro 1st :D

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