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Kaki menyusun langkah keluar dari lift HP building menuju ke parking lot pekerja. Ayunan tak perlahan tak laju. Sambil2 otak mengingatkan pergerakan kaki agar lebih teratur. Kalau tidak, takut terpeleot pergelangan kaki. Kasut tumit 3 inci jangan diambil endah tidak endah. Walaupon bergaya, tapi merbahaya!

sesekali mata terkenyit2 menahan silau panahan matahari. Tengok jam di pergelangan tangan sudah menunjukkan pukul 4. terkenyit2 lagi mata tatkala mencari2 Neo hitam tercinta. Rasa2 pagi tadi park kereta dekat2 je, tapi muncung kereta masih lagi tak kelihatan. Badan dah terasa tak sabar pekena sentuhan angin bayu aircond. Lantak la kaki kalau jalan tak teratur lagi. perteduhan mesti diutamakan. Bamos bamos!!

Yatta..! jumpa akhirnya kereta. Oh ye. Serasanye, kene renew roadtax dalam awal bulan ni jugak. Bila ye. setiba di sisi kereta, terus mata mencari2 tarikh tamat road tax. 13OCT. hurmm..okay~~..mata berkeliaran pula ke tepi badan Neo(google kata Left Fender) lalu kepala ditunduk sedikit untuk menyenangkan mata membuat analisis kedamage-an yg ade. tangan yg tergaru2 kepala dialih pula mengusap2 garisan2 calar yang kelihatan di hadapan mata. Otak teringatkan Quarter Panel Kanan yang lebih teruk dan perlu di touch up ASAP.  Terkeluh sekejap dalam hati memikirkan duit yg akan berterbangan. Saya nak duit jatuh keriba boleh tak!

Tetiba telinga tertangkap satu suara kecil dan secara refleksi, kepala diangkat. waduh, terperanjat badan dan otak melihat seorang perempuan kurus tinggi (lebih tinggi dari aku) memakai topi(some kind of straw hat?) dalam lingkungan penghabisan 40-an(teka je) yg sedang memegang sebakul rotan(atau bakul biasa je?memori otakku keliru!) berisi something berdiri menghadapani aku sambil matanya merenungku.

otak pada masa ni bermulti tasking dengan persoalan2 yg boleh membuatkan aku pening kepala. sejak bila makcik ni ade kat sini? tadi tak nampak pon. Nasib baik makcik tu dengan aku dijarakkan dengan kereta Neo beloved. Kalau tak, dengan badan2 aku sekali pening.

makcik ni bercakap dengan aku ke?

"aaa..?" pertanyaan universal yang bermaksud apedia?

"Mintak duit..nak makan.." ujarnye perlahan. Sambil matanya masih lagi melekap padaku


Pertanyaan nye sekarang, ape yang korang akan buat kalau korang kat tempat aku?

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ps: terasa menggatal nak karang ayat ala2 novel. hancus. Dewan bahasa dan pustaka kata "Anda BATAL!!". What to do..bekas bakal novelis begini la....

Comments

little daisy said…
klau time tu ader duit lebih, hulur la sikit kot. makcik tu mungkin dah lame tak makan agaknyer. tgk gaya dulu kot?!
a.T.i.e.Q.a said…
haha.. kelakar la ko ni kirin :P

kalau aku hulur sikit2 apa yang ada.. malas nak cakap banyak!

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