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situasi :

Si A : Bapak besar lubang hidung kau! dah la sebelah je pulak tu!!

reaksi kamu?:

A: Kepala Hotak ko! rasa macam dah lama hidup kat dunia ni ke? (muke merah, hidung kembang kuncup, mata gile menjengil)
B: Ah, Sukati la lubang idung aku nk besa macam mana pon. Ade menyusahkan ko?
C: ............(terasa hati yg amat sampai rasa nk nangis tapi x tau nak cakap ape)
D: ............(macam muke die tu lawa beno je nak cakap kekurang orang lain)
E: ............(takde perasaan)
F: ............(Buat2 macam tade perasaan, tapi dalam hati gile emosi memberontak)
G: (Nada marah)Nak buat macam mana? dah Allah nak jadikan!
H: DUSH!!!!!
I: Kejadian Allah. Aku terima seadanye. (ikhlas)

sile bulatkan pilihan anda. Pakai Pensil 2B ye. kalo tak susah nak detect.

Dah pilih? aku? kalo boleh aku nk bulatkan pilihan yg last skali. kalau boleh. tapi aku rasa hanya orang2 yg hati die ikhlas dan redha je yg boleh sampai ke tahap camtu.

so, awal2 lagi I dah di strike outkan utk aku. So, D dan G bagi aku.

motif soalan cepu emas diatas?

sebab aku selalu peratikan dan dengar mulut2 manusia(kadang2 termasuk la aku) yg suke sangat mengata orang. muke orang macam itu la, hitam sangat la, taik lalat gile besar la, bla bla bla...
kadang2 aku terpikir, orang yg mengata orang ni tak sensitif(kadang2 termasuk la aku). diorang ni perfect sangat ke sampai nak gelak ketawakan kekurangan orang lain.

Ade sekali aku terdengar ayat ni "die tak de la cantik sangat". aku tengok muke orang yg mengomel tu pon, bukan la cantik mana pon. rasa macam jahat je bile hati aku cakap macam tu. Manusiaa...

Kadang2 ape yg terdetik di dalam hati, elok disimpan dalam hati. jangan membazir air liur mangata orang sini sana.

PS: kalo korang dengar seseorang kutuk2 orang lain, ape reaksi korang? Fikir2kan dan selamat beramal..


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