Skip to main content

kabut, hangin, malu!...sambungannye..[part2]

pkol 4.30, lepas je balik dari ngantar esemen dan lepas meng-unbar-kan status kawan aku yg telah dibarkan oleh finance oleh sebab2 yg tertentu, aku ngadap le lappy. tetiba terasa cam nak cek cgpa aku. dah bukak2 site MMU ni, tetiba je kat laman nak cek grade aku, tak leh nak tengok. sebabnye aku kene bar ngan finance. APEHAL! aku dah setel sume mende dah, dah banyak dah aku dok sedekah kan duit kat MMU, takkan nak bar aku kot! ni dah melampau dah ni. tengok kat jam, jarum dah tunjuk lagi 15 minit nak pkol 5 dan ini bermakna aku ade masa 15 minit je, nak siap2 pakai tudung, pecut ke finance dan meng-unbar-kan diri aku sendiri. gile laju aku jalan ke STAD. rasanye kalo nak masuk olimpik pon layak kot dalam acara lumba jalan kaki.

sampai2 kat finance, aku tanya kakak yg keje kat situ nape status aku kene bar. kakak tu kata, awak kene bar sebab ade saman tak bayar. AIK!! saman kemendenye pulak? seingat aku, tak pernah le plak aku ade buat ape2 kesalahan. kalo2 pon kene bayar kat MMU tuh pon sebab aku terlambat pulangkan buku library. tak paham aku! aku tanya lagi kat kakak tu.
"saman ape kak?"
"saman pasal lambat register masuk ostel sem 2 sesi 06/07"
terlopong aku. hangin aku. geram! sebabnye,
1) kenape aku tak tahu langsung pasal saman2 ni. kenape aku tak diberitahu.
2)kenape sem 2 punye hal, sesi 06/07 punye hal, baru sekarang die nak setelkan. skang dah sesi 08/09 kot.
3) aku kene saman RM20 hengget kot. b**i betol.
ye..aku admit, mmg salah aku register ostel lambat. tapi, masalahnye sekarang, kenapa aku tak tahu menahu langsung pasal menda alah tu. buatnye kalo aku tak dpat nak grad disebabkan MMU tak kasi lepas hanya kerana tak bayar saman 20 hengget tu cane. geram betol aku!

bersambung....(nanti malam ke aku edit. ngantok ni. baru lepas balik dari kelas swimming)

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Easy On Me

Dah lama tak layan lagu-lagu sebenarnya. Layan lagu ni pun sebab Aina Abdul punya cover and this cover is currently on the loop. This song hits differently when I suddenly realized the meaning of the line "So go easy on me..." I was like straight away imagining the kids saying that line to me....and it feels so heartbreaking..and I feel so sorry and it made me tried harder to be better.. Honestly parenting is tough. Really really tough.. It's going one month more to full 4 years now where I became a single parent to 2 of my sister's kids. Life and things happened to my sister so I step myself in to take care of her kids. I thought then that it was an easy thing for me to do that, but no! Oh God no!! Ya Allah how wrong I was!! My first 2 years in was the hardest and I struggled with the sudden changes I have to made. The 180 adjustment (in every directions) I had to take kinda messed me up a little bit (emotionally and physically).   But I learned  All sorts of things.

A dump post

Rabu dah kejap je minggu ni dah tak ada dah emosional bagai. Alhamdulillah. Sampai tengok cerita Hotel Del Luna part sedih pon, bergenang pon tidak  Part scene sedih tu boleh tak terheran kejap. Cam, kenapa tak meleleh ni? sebab selalunya kalau tengok drama memang senang sangat air hujan turun. Yang aku perasan, diri ni tak boleh terlalu dry sangat emosi tu. Sebab dia bukan betul-betul tak peduli, tapi emosi tu akan build up dan bila dah sampai threshold dia.....mula la break down. Bahaya anyway Many things happened within this little time from the last post. Might be mundane things for others, but not so for me. On Sunday, I accompanied mak to her acquaintance cafe. we had a lovely breakfast together. An english style breakfast.....which is not to my liking and I kept on thinking I want Nasi Lemak! (which they have actually).  and somewhere along our conversations mak touched on when she's 'gone' thingy...I was extremely saddened by that. Like really really sad

Trying is all I can do

This week is an emotional wreck kinda week. Starting from Sunday evening all the way through the week, it's one rocky roller coaster ride. Rasanya hampir semua emosi yang exist this whole universe hadir dalam minggu ni.  Please no more.. Waktu siang tak  terasa sangat sebab serious busy, so otak tak pikir apa. Tapi bila time masa senggang.....Too much feels..too much thoughts... Minggu ni saja First time tidur sambil berendam air mata.  First time menangis sampai mata sembab macam kena tumbuk, dan first time tak dapat tidur sebab menangis. Tapi apa yang aku dapat minggu ni?  It's okay to cry So that I could function well the next day It's okay to feel so much So that I could get closure that I never knew I need And try to move on And to rely to others And to hold on tight on Allah to protect you and your family May next week be better much much much than this week. InsyaAllah.