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kabut, hangin, malu!...sambungannye lagi..[part3]

balik dari stad building (lepas dah bayar saman ostel bengong tu), aku tpon watek menceritakan ke-tak puas hati-an aku terhadap system finance mmu ni. sedang2 meluahkan perasaan aku dengan dahi berkerut2 dan kalo ikutkan hati sambil jalan tu nak je hentak2kan kaki (tinggal lagi aku tak buat pasal tanak orang kata pahal budak ni marching kat tgh2 MMU ni), aku cam terperasan macam ade orang kat foodcourt bawah ostel melambai2kan tgn die. sekali lagi aku kerut2kan dahi aku tap kali ni sebab nak focuskan view aku. rasanye macam fieza dan kalo x silap aku, kat sebelah die alon. tapi aku tak sure. sebab tak jelas! ye..aku rabun! rabun ye, bukan bute. mata aku due2 ade power okey*smug*(100 je, tanak tamak amik power lebih). tu pasal la kalo ade orang senyum aku dari jauh tapi aku buat tatau je, jgn le anggap aku sombong. aku tak nampak.

back to the story.

masa aku buat assumption sape la si empunya badan yg membuat lambaian bayu sumatera tu, kaki aku konfiden je melangkah ke arah foodcourt(and while all this things happened, I was still on the phone with watek). tak sampai 3 tapak kaki aku langkah, ade seorang mamat laju je pintas aku(die dari belakang aku), terus pergi ke foodcourt dan duduk kat meja budak yg melambai tadi.

kaki aku terus terhenti.
bukan aku ke yg di panggil? aku salah mendetect orang ke? nak buat ape skang ni? perlu ke aku pergi dekat2 kat diorang just to make sure? nak buat ape skang ni wei?
aku dah malu giller dah ni weih!!!!

and all the whole time, I was still on the phone..

last2, aku pusing balik, buat2 selamba naik ostel dan pergi terus ke bilik aku. sampai2 je bilik, berguling2 aku kat atas katil pasal perasaan malu setebal kamus dewan bahasa dan pustaka. geh!!!!!malu siut..

cerita ni tak habis lagi weih...

nok balik bilik je (dengan membawa air bandung ais utk aku), die cerita yg die terserempak ngan fieza ngan alon kat foodcourt. dan sebenarnye, fieza lambai aku! tapi mamat tu plak yg terperasan! adeh....buat penat je aku manahan malu tadi.

moral of the story..
1. lenkali jgn lengah2 buat keje (part1)
2.MMu memang mengong(part2)
3.pakai spek(saye benci! feels like it restricted my view)


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