minggu malas sedunia(appointed by me)..semorang.. jgn nak rajin2..

gehh.....
sangap giller!!
oh..sebelom tu, nak bagitau. INTERNSHIP HAKU DAH HABIS!!!! yay!!!betapa gembira nye aku. tayah bangun awal...tayah tergopoh gapah siap2 gi keje..tayah tersangkut kat traffic jam..tayah dok sangap kat opis pasal tade keje..yeehoooo!!!yeebedabedoo!!!

hari bahagia aku dah tiba..

heh..bahagia le sangat. habis keghoje ni kehidupan aku rasa cam kosong..x de mende nak buat. dok malangok kat umah buat lemak dalam badan. Geh!! sangap giller....nak ajak bebudak lain keluar jalan2, demo sume ade keghoje. internship derang blom hbs lagi. what to do??

yg menjadi masalah utama skang ni, dulu, sebelom hbs internship, aku dah berazam nak qada' tdo aku sebelom masuk sem 3. tetapi!! olah kerana dah 3 bulan lebih aku dok bangun awal je kejenye, lepas pkol 8 je otomatik mata aku akan terbukak. kalo paksa pejam pon, nnt bagun2 pening kepala. soo..what to do??

geh...
besok confirm kene bangun awal. hantar kete pergi servis kat proton. mulenye nak hantar senin hari tu, tapi sebb aku layankan perasaan procrastinate aku tuh, hok tu jadi lagu ni. baru tadi balik dari sana. tu pon kete aku x servis lagi pasal kakak tu kata kene buat appoinment dulu pasal dah penuh sangat.. ceh..kalo aku tau kene buat appoinment, senin lagi dah pergi. skang ni salah siapa? hidung aku jugak!!

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Easy On Me

Dah lama tak layan lagu-lagu sebenarnya. Layan lagu ni pun sebab Aina Abdul punya cover and this cover is currently on the loop. This song hits differently when I suddenly realized the meaning of the line "So go easy on me..." I was like straight away imagining the kids saying that line to me....and it feels so heartbreaking..and I feel so sorry and it made me tried harder to be better.. Honestly parenting is tough. Really really tough.. It's going one month more to full 4 years now where I became a single parent to 2 of my sister's kids. Life and things happened to my sister so I step myself in to take care of her kids. I thought then that it was an easy thing for me to do that, but no! Oh God no!! Ya Allah how wrong I was!! My first 2 years in was the hardest and I struggled with the sudden changes I have to made. The 180 adjustment (in every directions) I had to take kinda messed me up a little bit (emotionally and physically). But I learned All sorts of things.

A dump post

Rabu dah kejap je minggu ni dah tak ada dah emosional bagai. Alhamdulillah. Sampai tengok cerita Hotel Del Luna part sedih pon, bergenang pon tidak Part scene sedih tu boleh tak terheran kejap. Cam, kenapa tak meleleh ni? sebab selalunya kalau tengok drama memang senang sangat air hujan turun. Yang aku perasan, diri ni tak boleh terlalu dry sangat emosi tu. Sebab dia bukan betul-betul tak peduli, tapi emosi tu akan build up dan bila dah sampai threshold dia.....mula la break down. Bahaya anyway Many things happened within this little time from the last post. Might be mundane things for others, but not so for me. On Sunday, I accompanied mak to her acquaintance cafe. we had a lovely breakfast together. An english style breakfast.....which is not to my liking and I kept on thinking I want Nasi Lemak! (which they have actually). and somewhere along our conversations mak touched on when she's 'gone' thingy...I was extremely saddened by that. Like really really sad

Trying is all I can do

This week is an emotional wreck kinda week. Starting from Sunday evening all the way through the week, it's one rocky roller coaster ride. Rasanya hampir semua emosi yang exist this whole universe hadir dalam minggu ni. Please no more.. Waktu siang tak terasa sangat sebab serious busy, so otak tak pikir apa. Tapi bila time masa senggang.....Too much feels..too much thoughts... Minggu ni saja First time tidur sambil berendam air mata. First time menangis sampai mata sembab macam kena tumbuk, dan first time tak dapat tidur sebab menangis. Tapi apa yang aku dapat minggu ni? It's okay to cry So that I could function well the next day It's okay to feel so much So that I could get closure that I never knew I need And try to move on And to rely to others And to hold on tight on Allah to protect you and your family May next week be better much much much than this week. InsyaAllah.

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