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*sigh*
masuk minggu ni dah hampir nak 3 minggu dah keabnormalan berlaku kat aku. al-kisahnye, satu petang ni aku tdor(weekend.sabtu ke ahad ntah, x hengat) pasal buhsan sangat tatau nak buat ape so aku cakap kat otak aku, tdo je la. lagipon, weekend la masanye tok tidur sepuas2nye(susah cite, aku suke tdor). bangun2 je, dah abnormal. walopon aku ngaku kadang2 aku ni bukannye normal sgt pon, tapi orang tak nampak. tapi yg menjadi masalah sekarang ni, sape2 yg pandang aku je akan for sure sudah tentu tak dapat disangkalkan lagi yg memang sah aku ni pelik.

meh aku suluh mana yg gelap

mata aku sepet sebelah. arghh!!tak puasnye hati aku!!! gosok punye gosok, still tak betol. waaaaa...nak buat camner ni..

sob sob sob...

slalu camni tau..kalo aku tak jaga sikit je, mesti sepet sebelah. mengong tol. bile aku tgk balik susur gulur keluarga aku, tade plak la kaum cine jadi acestor aku yg membolehkan aku dapat gene mata sepet ni. sume melayu je. mata ni pon satu. kalo nak sepet pon, sepet le dua2 belah. tade la aku ni pikir pape sgt..

bukan ape weih, bile dah jadi camni, aku nye self esteem merudum sket. aku akan lebih self conscious. ye la, pernah dengar orang2 cakap ayat 'Dari Mata Jatuh KeHati'? . kalo orang pandang mata aku, nnt akan jatuh le ke hati derang ayat2 macam "bapak cacat mata budak ni". ye... aku tau, graf self-conscious aku tinggi.

dulu2 time aku kat sekolah menengah, mende camni penah jadi kat aku hampir setahun. bayangkan time aku masih lagi mude remaja, hati tgh sangat rapuh, hyper sensitive, sume mende dari sekecik2 kuman hingga lah sebesar dinosor akan aku pertikaikan, time2 gini mata aku buat hal. self-esteem aku melayang ke hutan. haih..bukan senang oo nak jadi budak remaja.

ade sekali tu time aku form 3, ade cekgu ni masuk kelas aku. tatau le kewujudan die kat sekolah tok ape, aku tak hengat. mmg aku taknak ingat cekgu tu langsung. 1st time masuk kelas, pas bercakap2 ngan kelas, entah dari benua mana ntah tetiba je die bg tau kitorang satu kelas yg kalo kite salah tdor mata boleh jadi sepet.

terdiam aku masa sekejap. membatu aku 5 minit. otak aku ligat berpusing2 sampai tayar kete F1 yg tgh bertanding pon takleh nak lawan. aku pikir sekuat2 badang yg tgh mengamuk kat hutan amazon. cekgu ni biar betol. tgh kutuk aku ke pasal seingat aku tade plak budak kelas ni yg mata sepet selain aku(diingatkan sekali lagi, sepet sebelah). korang kene paham. jiwa aku masih lagi berdarah muda dan hati mudah terusik. so bile je cekgu tu cakap camtu walopon die just nak bg info ke hape ke, aku jadi cam perasan sendiri yg die tgh cakap pasal aku(tatau le betol ke idak). dan disebabkan hal tu, terus aku banned cekgu tu. ehehhe..tu pasal aku tak hengat muke, nama, pape y berkaitan ngan die. nada..

sekarang ni, setelah dah matang sikit, self-esteem aku pon dah kire balik umah dari hutan tebal mana ntah walopon kadang2 die still merayau2, aku dah mule terima keadaan. haih..nak tau nape aku cakap cam tu, sbb skang ni aku dah boleh pandang mata orang dengan selesa walopon mata aku tak normal. ehehhehe...

gile panjang entry. penat aku taip sampai rasa nak muntah.

Comments

kimot said…
uwekk..aku pon muntah hahaha
Anonymous said…
loh...
kaklang nih ada darah cina india nih..
sbb tuh mata sebelah besa, mata sebelah sepet..


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