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dear diary

It's been a while since I blogged . . .

it's not that I dont have time, more like I dont have things to say write

Anyway.....did any of you notice that we're getting nearer to the end of 2013. And aint time fliessssz...

A lot happened this year. It's a shame that I dont write diary/ies . I often bought cute books that were intended to be my so called diary but they never ended up being one. I might write 4-5 pages initially, but the rest are left blank. or sometimes, the book just ended up being my 'financial book' (Putting down where the cash flows every month is important for me anyway).

But I keep on buying cute books! Never quite know how to keep down the 'buying' impulse at bay.

Anyway.......in my family, the one who write diaries (that I know of) are my dad and my grand dad..

the books are not the cute one though

the boring/dull/monotone one

like so




I asked my dad this morning the purpose of this thing (duh)

"to track things down" he said.... . . .  (I really shouldn't have asked some obvious question that have obvious answers should I (=____= ) )



Anyway........

A lot really happened to me this year.....

And may Allah bless me and my family with his mercy and love on the days to come



P/S : there's a new song (I didnt catch the title of it tho), that started with "dear diary something something something something..........."  . It's not Britney and M2M (coz that's the first 2 artists that I have in mind for the song that have 'dear diary' in it). The song's quite good. It just that I have this "Whaaatt!!?" moment. Because the singer was a dude. It was kinda weird because all the songs that I've listened to previously, no guy ever sing the lyrics that have 'dear diary' in it. I know I'm bad for 'genderalized' things, but....it kinda feel weird.

and the only people that wrote diaries in my family were men.... . . . . .

=_=

talk about double standard.. . . . .

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