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fake it till I make it!

bebelan pertama
Pagi tadi pergi ke kelas dengan hati yang sangat malas. Kalau ikutkan hati nurani, nak je tuang kelas ni. Kalau nak diikutkan lagi bapak nenek moyang perasaan bengong aku, aku tanak tuang2 kelas ni sume. Nak tanamkan je pengajian master ni.

Susah la belajar sambil berkerja ni. Aku mmg sangat tabik spring toing toing orang yg belajar part time ni tau. Mana nak uruskan masa bekerja lagi, mana nak uruskan masa nak study lagi. waaaa....Saya nak menguruskan masa memang K.O! tolong lah. tolong lah ya Allah bagi aku kekuatan supaya aku boleh berjaya sampai khatam Master aku ni.

dan..banyak kali jugak aku tanya diri sendiri. Betul ke keputusan aku nak belajar balik ni..

kamon Kirin! you are not a quitter! jiayo!

Bebelan Kedua

Habis kelas, otak sangat tepu. so member cadangkan tengok Immortal. set!. Perut pon lapar. So gerak gi Alamanda(faveret shopping mall!). korang ade pernah makan kat Great Canyon tak kat Alamanda tu?kedai tu dok kat area food court. seriously recommended. Give it a try kalau tak pernah ke sana lagi.

Immortal... * sigh *. rasa macam rugi aku pergi bagi RM11 kat kaunter tiket wayang tu. that movie was seriously a let down. The movie's setting(setup? scenery? what ever the term is) was seriously fake. everything in the movie is wrong. sometime its so cheesy I dont know whether to throw up or to laugh. Sometimes I even thought the acting were lousy. Damn. Thank god the hero is cute.

Bebelan Ketiga

Balik umah, dapat kad kahwin dari kawan. Lagi. Seriously, I'm not against people getting married and all that. In fact I am happy for them. Tapi, aku tak suke rasa macam ditinggalkan...help~

hampir semua budak kelas 5Z1 dah kawen...gahhhh...Kimah!!!!doa kan aku!
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