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Happy Eid Al-Hajj people!!!

how was your guys day? me? it was okay. Rose early in the morning(at least early for me), ate a little breakfast, went to surau to pray sunat hari raya, went back home, and sat around doing nothing. I am bored!!

do you guys know any recreational activities or any place that didnt need too much money to get involved in but still fun? give me some ideas.I've been thinking to do wall climbing. or bungee jumping. but that still need money that I kinda dont really have.

blerhg..money cant buy anything but at the same time, everything need money. what have our world became into? =__=

hurmm....I'm bored, so I want to make this entry a little longer. brace yourself people. this might turns into an ugly real bore entry.Skip if you want.

yesterday(or was it the day before yesterday?), I took Job Street English Language Assessment. it's for the employers to see my english efficiency I guess. the assessment consist of 40 questions. 10 Conversation, 10 Grammar, 10 Vocabulary, 10 Comprehension. my result? I've get 10 for conversation, 7 for grammar, and 1 wrong each for the rest. I'm not bragging here. The test was fairly easy. At least it seems that way.And I have to say that I kinda struggle a bit on comprehension. Grammar? lets just say that it was never my strong point.Ever.Even during my highschool years where my grammar knowledge was kinda strong. And if you guys read all my english entry, you'll notice the excellent grammar mistakes that I made. Not that I notice anyway.

Hopping from blog to blog, I felt kinda jealous for those who wrote their entries in English and manage to wrote it beautifully. Dont get me wrong, I do love entries in malay too. But somehow, for me at least, there's a different feelings when one conveys what they thought in other language. Malay has it own magic and so do others. The expression that each languages have makes it easier to get point across easily. But that, I fear, depends on the writer skills for playing words. And I, somehow love to convey my own thoughts in English.

My problem is, my writing was not that good. A lot of time during making an entry, I frantically search every part of my freaking brain for a word that could suit a sentence and make it sound better which a lot of the time left me staring helplessly at my laptop screen in hope that those words would just jump out of somewhere.And that takes some times. Despite my hobby at reading english novel, somehow my vocabulary doesnt grow that much. Or sometimes, the words are there hiding somewhere in my memory, but I couldnt seem to tackle them fast enough out of the hideout. I realize this like few years back. And that's why most my entries were in English. kinda want to practice my rusty english writing. Practice makes perfect right?!

my oral speaking? well, that's another different level. If I struggle to put words into paper, imagine my struggle for conversation.

my babbling stops here.


Comments

*miszleen* said…
pergh....speaking abis wa cakap lu~ ;P

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