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Hyperventilation

kames lepas, pergi Jaya Jusco kat Seri Kembangan. ada hari Jcard Day. besenye, kalo hari JDay ni, Jusco memang akan kasi diskaun kow2 punye. mmg sehabis murah la. aku ni plak jenis orang yg satu level bawah dari Shopaholic. asal nampak kertas empat segi yg menunjukkan 70% ke, 50% ke, jantung aku mesti akan pam darah 50% lebih laju dari speed biasa sekaligus menyebabkan darah merah mengalir lebih deras kesegenap tubuh badan aku. pernafasan aku pon ikut sama laju. mula la nafsu aku kata "jom serang!!" tapi nasib baik akal aku bleh lagi menolak2 si nafsu ni. masalahnye, pengattack lebih ramai dari si pengdefence. so segelintir kaum2 pengattack ni lolos dari kubu defender. tu sebab ar aku last2 menyopping gak..

back to track.

hari kames tu, pagi2 dalam pkol 9 lebih, anim, nok ngan aku gerak gi JJ dari ostel. hati aku dah excited bagai dah. sampai JJ, parking penuh giller. dah tade space dah, terpaksa parking kat tepi jalan. tapi tuh sume tepi punye kire. tade hal. yg penting, shopping. masuk je bangunan JJ tu, aku dah macam orang gile.terhyperventilate aku kat dalam bangunan kotak2 tuh. mana taknye, pandang depan 70%, pandang tepi 50%, pandang kiri 70%. nok plak awal2 kate, kalo ade baju 10 hengget die nak beli. memang ade pon! berlamabak2. sampaikan aku rasa mata si nok macam dah tak nampak dunia. nampak baju je. ntah2 aku pon die tak nampak ^^

naseb baik la sebelom kitorang ke bahagian baju2 tu, kitorang dah siap2 pergi dept. electronics dulu, belikan hadiah kawen Zureen. kalo tak, hadiah ke mana, duit kemana.

serius tak cukup masa nak memilih barang. pukul 12.30 dah nak kene balik pasal si Nok ade kelas. rasa cam malas je nak ikut die balik. dalam diam, ade sore jahat dalam hati aku cam soh si Nok ponteng klas. tapi nasib baik sore jahat tu tak kuat sangat. sekadar berbisik. ^^

malam tu, datang balik JJ. bawak si Watek plak(anim pon ikut skali). kalo tak bawak budak tuh, mau menangis tak berlagu sampai banjir2 nnt. x nak amik risiko bawak gak..dalam satu hari tu, sempat la aku merembat 5 baju ngan sehelai suar jeans. balik ostel, termenung panjang aku mengenangkan duit yg da terbang dan beberape je yg tinggal....

tahun depan, nekad. 4 bulan sebelom JDay nnt, aku tanak shopping. kumpul duit. tibe je hari tu nnt, amik cuti. dari pagi sampai malam aku nak berkampung kat JJ. Nekad!!

Comments

Violacea said…
ko pn br update ke cek kirin. aku siyes xde ms nk update psl menyopping sakan di JJ itui. lgpn x besh ar. gmbo baju2 yg ko amik tu x ditranfer lg dlm pc aku. hehe.

Jom kt g Genting jom. ;)
keireen said…
jom2..tunggu pas final

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