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adeh...

tgh kemalasan tahap kerbau dok berkubang kat dalam ayaq lumpuq!

hari ni bgn sikit punyer awal berbanding hari2 bese. nak balik umah punye pasal. semalam calculate2 nak balik umah pas habis kelas dalam pkol 6 camtu. tapi disebabkan mata aku smalam macam kene letak batu 1000 tan sampaikan tertidur2 kat dalam kelas disebabkan x larat nak bukak kelopak punye pasal, menyebabkan plan balik umah tergendala ke hari ni. x kesah la. dah selamat sampai dah pon. alhamdulillah..

balik umah awal sikit pasal nak menyebokkan diri ikut mak pergi Tesco. beli barang2. disebabkan duit poket dah ala2 macam cuaca kat padang pasir sahara, terpaksa kene ikut mak. kunun2 nak tolong2 angkut barang2. tapi agenda utama ialah menambahkan barang2 keperluan aku dalam maknye list 'barang2 yg perlu dibeli'. hehehhe. sambil menyelam minum air.

hampir sume anak buat camtu kan? ngaku je la..

on da way balik, mak tanya..
"bile nak habis blaja? lama giller dah rasanye" lebih kurang gitu le ayatnye. tapi perkataan giller tu tade la.

"dalam bulan 5 ni habis la" aku pon rasa cam dah lama sangat.

"pas ni nak buat ape?"

"cari keje la. ingat cam nak cari keje kat Cyber. Bangi ke" mintak2 murah la rezeki aku.

"x nak buat master ke sambil2 tu?"

"eheh..nanti2 dulu la mak. skang rasa cam x larat je nak blajar lagi"

serius aku dah tak larat. rasa cam x sanggup je.

haih. sem ni, bagi aku adelah sem yg paling menyeksakan kot. maybe sebab aku marah kot kat diri sendiri pasal me-messed-up-kan 1st year aku dulu. tgk ape dah jadi skang!.

aduhai.

doakan aku tok subject Electronics3. tak pernah aku rasa begitu keseorangan nak belajar sesuatu subjek dalam sejarah hidup aku.

damn those stupid year!
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